It means that i’ll be walking in the dark and it will be uncomfortably cold, but it needs to be done. I have a feeling I wont be able to go to the gym as often as I would like now because my mum’s sick, so she won’t be wanting to go. I hate exercising by myself, because I just feel like such a douche, but I have no other option now that my sister is away and mum is sick and probably will be for a few more weeks at least. 

I just really want to look hot for Europe, and I want the doubt in my mind on whether or not I can do this, to just disappear. I also need to leave now and go for a walk before it gets too dark haha

We’re leaving on the 25th and my birthday is on the 28th, so I’ll be spending my birthday in London, which will be quite nice.

I have 41 days to lose weight before I go. I know for a fact I’m definitely going to gain weight over there with all the food that I just wont be able to resist and I wont want to resist. I want to lose as much weight as I can before I leave so that the guilt of being on holiday and not being able to exercise/follow a routine wont be too overwhelming. I want to be able to just enjoy my holiday and feel good, so the next 5/6 weeks is dedicated to healthy eating and hardcore exercise in the hope that I will be able to lose weight and buy some new clothes for my trip, look hot and have some european boy fall in love with me..

If anybody feels like leaving me a message filled with motivational words or just anything, please do it! :) because I’m going to need all the help I can get to stick with this and not lose heart again